Sunday, July 1, 2012

March 4 - IDL


ideally, everything runs the way it should

But ERROR READING FILE crossed your face every time I tried to flirt with you in a freshman hallway [was I silly to try?]
I feel like I need to print, I AM HERE to tell you that you ought to remember me
exit
exit
exit
            I once dreamed we were kissing in front of our Spanish room [did I ever tell you that?] while you held me and smiled.  But some one knocked before you could leave me and so I am left only with the vague phantom of a relationship that I wish had happened and that I now convince myself that you wanted too.

Can you plot the change in our relationship? I can.
It started in February when you found out that I hooked up with some one.  You seemed to be put out because it wasn’t you – or at least that’s what I consoled myself with later when you left me sitting alone at a lunch table in a perfect reflection of how we had started up the nothing that we had.  You had once refused to let me sit alone; at the time I thought it was gentlemanly but now I grow angry at the thought that you introduced yourself to me.

Are we done then? It’s been a year.  I’ll quit and write and hope for something else to run more smoothly.

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